i need to go back to vertical adventures! i'm going crazy!

today at work, all i thought about were those unfinished routes i left behind at va. and all the stupid moves i made! lol i was replaying this one wall, and all i could think about was how stupid i must've looked. =) hahaha at the time i was just determined to get up the wall cuz i was so frustrated. i didn't care how i just wanted to get up to the top!!! and now i'm like...if i just used the foothold to the left of the blue one and not look so silly and awkward then i probably could've made it to the top lol. oh well...now i'm just determined to go back...argh i wanna go right now...

ok i gotta get back to studying. more climbing tomorrow at shapes woohoo =)

sighs.

embrace the man hands.

everyone is slowing down on their blog postings...especially me hehe i just got lazy. but it's nice to see that more people are getting blogs. i like to keep up with people's business since i don't see a lot of everyone nowadays...

hmm...so as per usual: the weekend update. it started on thursday when i had to take redan out for saving my grades! and it ended up he made me gamble ten bucks on the machines at smitty's and i won fourty bucks! haha so redan ended up taking the bill. woohoo. rhoda's gonna kill me for encouraging red. and i'm just trading one vice for another. woohoo gambling's fun!

friday: alma's birthday at the lid! omg i was so hammered! drinks were only $2.25! so cheap! except i didn't spend any money hahah i love being a girl =) anyways. ed picked me up and it was so nice seeing everyone again! i remember saying this in a previous blog but everything changes and nothing changes. so many weird things happened. so many weird people. so many guys groping and grabbing and slapping my ass. aside from the perversion of random guys (as well as the company i was with haha) it was a lot of fun =) anyways. i can barely remember a lot of the night. i know we went to a hotel party and i crashed on the floor next to jeff. and the i ended up at home somehow. i love cheap drinks =)

saturday: i woke up praying to the porcelain gods. and i think i was still drunk when i had to drive to meet our new trainee joao brazil. i can't believe i made it to the airport in the condition i was in. and i think i just started to become hungover as the day progressed.

we took joao out for lunch to moxxies and he was so cute! we were showing him our money and he picked up a loonie and said "i have six of these!" anyways i can't believe how ignorant some people are. the server was taking our orders and someone just pointed out that he was new to canada. and the she like crouched down and spoke LOUDER and SLOWER as if he didn't understand english. for one thing did she not hear that we were all having conversations with him. and second, if he didn't understand english how would speaking louder help?

later that night (after a good nap and study session) we took joao out to shannon's pub. no other aiesecers was there...and the place was so scary (everyone stared at the only asian girl in the pub with her friends all dressed up with stilettos and leather jackets as we walked around we stuck out like a sore thumb and we were totally not feelin the place) we weren't comfortable, and joao didn't particularity like the place, so we headed off to corydon, met up with the other aiesecers, and had some yummy food and drinks at bar italia. ahh corydon it never fails. and joao said that was more like his scene. so yay for us and our executive decision to change locations.

i got lost driving joao home...but we found a landmark so we would always remember how to get back...turn right when you see teasers =)

sunday: got up to study. then got ready for rock climbing at vertical adventures for chris's first aiesec event! even though there were only five aiesecers in total there. but it was more than at my first event! so yay go chris! anyways, it was my first time at va and it was so much fun! it's not as big as i thought it would be, but it was so overwhelming. there are so many walls i didn't even know where to start to climb. there were also so many people. mostly kids though, but i'm not used to it i guess, at the gym i'm usually there by myself of a few other people.

i left there with so many routes that i need to finish!! so when exams are over i'm going to make it out there to finish what i started. i overexerted myself and i didn't have enough energy at the end. so i know where to start when i go back. hopefully by then i will have my rock climbing shoes! i ordered them on friday after finally sending over all the information brian needed! woohoo im so excited!

anyways, i've finally accepted the fact that i'm forever gonna have yucky man hands hehe. so i'll embrace them, and every time i look at how yucky they are, i will be reminded of how i got them: by doing something that i love =)

hmm what else is new? oh yah i found out that shauna is thinking of stopping over in winnipeg on her way home to tdot after nc2005 in calgary! that would be so dope to see her in my hometown. but then again...its winnipeg...and i think i'd be embarrassed if i had to show shauna around in like a matter of an hour. hehe but i know we will have fun regardless if she comes down. like staying hitting up empire to salsa, and staying up until six in the morning screaming and giggling and spooning haha but if she can't stop by i'll see her a week after back in t-dot hopefully =) for cabin fever muahahahahaah it's kinda funny how i get invited to events out in t-dot. shauna's b-day was a particular situation. one, shuana asked me to come to her bday when we were in montreal. two and three: shauna manipulated be because i was vulnerable from "the situation", and then it lead me to become a runaway. anyway, it's nice that they're thinking about me all the way out there in t-dot i feel the love =)

speaking of t-dot. i've been contemplating whether or not i should move for the summer. it's creeping up close and closer and a year and a half ago i was so determined to leave this place, and now that it's only five months away i'm not sure on what i want to do. i was thinking about all of the things i would miss out on, and how homesick i would be, because i would be leaving for europe as soon as i get home. and duh money is a huge issue. but it's only the summer. and i think cara and i are gonna be roomies in a shady apartment on queen street! but still things for her are all up in the air too...so ahh i'm kidna freaking out cuz may is just around the corner and i don't have any concrete plans yet! definate goal setting is in need. once exams are over then i can clear my head of useless information, and focus on a plan for the next five months. oh geez and time is just gonna fly by...

frontin'

rock climbing rocks =)

i absolutely love tuesday gym days! it starts with 45 minutes of body combat, 15 minutes of pushups and situp, 15 minutes of stretch, 15 minutes in the hot tub, then the rock climbing begins =) i was the only one rock climbing there for three hours. so i totally took advantage of sean (not in that way sickos) and i had my very own climbing coach hehe he made me climb some crazy routes and then we went and played some bouldering games. then he made me practice all of these techniques like skimming and mantels and stuff. so i had a very productive climbing day. sean's a really good motivator and didn't let me come down the wall even if i was uber frustrated, and no matter how much i pouted. only until i made it to the top (or close to anyways) he would finally lower me when i said "let me down now please." hehe anyways i'm improving and learning more about my body and balance and strength and posture. it's sort of like dancing. i don't want to look like i have two left feet when i'm climbing, and all it takes is practice. =)

so for the past week i've been hardcore researching on climbing shoes. every single retailer in winnipeg has been crazy accommoding...except for mountain equipment co-op. one day i was ready to drop money and buy some shoes...but no one would help me so i just left in a hissy fit. and now i'm anti mec. so the other dealers in winnipeg, or brian from the states are going to get my business. brian has been the most helpful and accommodating. he's provided me with reviews of the shoes i want from sources external to his company, and sizing information. and by email or phone he responds within a few hours. now that's what i call customer service. and that's why his company is going to get lot's of money from me. hehe

i've just discovered that karen loves rock climbing too. she has an advantage over me though cuz shes like six inches shorter than me. and like 20 pounds lighter or something. but we're gonna go climbing when she comes home for christmas! seriously, karen and i have way too much in common! it's almost scary =) that's why we're such good friends. she's my soulmate lol we were destined to be friends i think.

well i guess you can tell that i'm becoming quite passionate about rock climbing! hehe i can't wait till sunday for vertical adventures woohoo. hopefully i can get back into volleyball on friday and then salsa next wednesday. i've been missing out in the last few weeks. yah there's something called school and work hehe

one non-climbing related tid bit: thanks redan! you saved my life. i mean my grades! hehe i owe you big time! bar i or tyc tomorrow to celebrate the A paper instead of the B paper hehe

anyways, back to term paper writing. fun fun fun...

over. that's all it took.

no one's gonna love a girl with man hands...

remember that episode of seinfeld...the girl with the man hands? hehe i think in a few more rock climbing sessions a guy would take one look at my hands his reaction would be: *crinkles his face in disgust* then says "eew" then runs in the other direction. because of rock climbing i got rid of my gel nails that i've had on for almost three years and i so miss my nail artist howard and our lovely chats. so all i'm left with is stubby lil nails that look like i've been biting on them for years. the chalk dries out my skin. and i have yucky calluses or whatever i can't even describe the yuckiness...anyway you wouldn't even know i salsa danced anymore. my nice soft supple perfectly manicured hands are no longer...boo..hehe

anyways i guess the trade off for this is a perfectly sculpted body. lol ok not perfectly. yet. i think i'm getting way more toned from rock climbing than just lifting weights. so i'm gonna keep at it. until i'm super ripped hahahah if you asked me six months ago what my favorite part of the body was i would say "booty" hehe but now...i think i would say "booty even more so" and "back" and "shoulders" and "baby biceps and triceps" hehe my abs have ways to go...i hate that stupid trouble spot. i don't like my legs as much but their getting there i've always hated my tiny ankles hehe. anyways i worked really hard to get where i am. and i'm proud of myself for getting my lazy ass up and hitting the gym six months ago.

i went climbing today for a bit. they put up new routes and i was testing some of them out. i need to learn learn learn how to apply climbing techniques. hopefully it's dead on tuesday like it normally is and sean can teach a private lesson again. =) i always forget that climbing is not all just about pulling yourself up. but you can push and mantle and all this other fun stuff. i just need to climb more so i can figure out how to be one with the wall...i'm so cheesy.

on a stupid sidenote:
person one: "do you think belayers look at your bum when you're climbing?"
person two: "i would. why?"
person one: "just curious. so you would look at my bum if you were belaying me?
person two: "i dont know. i guess so. i'll admit it you have a nice ass."

anyways. the weekend was great. more blabbering later. but i've realized i've been out of the city at least one weekend since july and this will continue on until february.

december: calgary for national congress 2005! be there or you are square!
january: t-dot for cabin fever =)
feburary: minneapolis for another work conference

oh fun fun fun

i dont even have to mention that i quit smoking two weeks ago today. and bleh it's not even an issue except for day nine and day fourteen. so i don't think i'll mention it again until either i have another nervous breakdown. or i cave which i dont think will happen any time soon! are you proud?

anyways i must get back to my studies. i'll try to blog more another day.

"we have nothing to fear but fear itself."

"just do it."

confident.

green

"A competent and self-confident person is incapable of jealousy in anything. Jealousy is invariably a symptom of neurotic insecurity." -Robert A. Heinlein.

envy is not a colour that suits me. nor is it a colour i wear very often. i'm fairly content with my life, and self-confidence has never really been an issue. but there are times when spontaneous bursts of insecruites get to the best of me. you always want more, and you're never be satisfied with what you already have, no matter how good, or how much you have. i'm not frontin' people, i'm just unsure of myself on the rare occasion =)

anyways, it's day number seven since i've quit smoking, and so far i haven't been having any trouble. i've heard that the first week is usually the hardest, but i haven't been going insane. i think it runs in the family, my dad, uncle, and grandma all quit cold turkey, so i think will power flows in my blood. i'm really proud of myself *pat on the back* and this has been easier to get out of my system then other things hehehe

i'm only twenty-two and i love potlucks and karaoke. mitch's potluck was sooooooo great. cara and i sat at the supper table for hours just savaging on yummy dishes and desert. and then we had a great time just givin'er with the karakoe. i think we went through every disc many times over...and over...and over hahah the eighties were great times...and the early nineties too =) highlights, marcus and dennis "it wasn't me" and cara "splish slash" and "stop in the name of love"

roj and i went to cafe 22 yesterday. it was great. just like old times, bantering and laughing and crying haha sometimes roujin is so blunt, and then he makes me cry, and then we laugh about it later. ok...he didn't really make me cry, but i'm sure he was pretty close to bringing me to tears. it was great though, most people just sugarcoat things and tell you what you want to hear. but no roj is direct, to the point, and doesn't hold back even if it's gonna make you cry lol i'm glad we're friends again =)

i hate the winnipeg salsa scene. or the lack thereof. andrea had her lil' party there. there are some creepy old dudes, and guys that think they can pretend they know how to dance and you wont notice. i'm not gonna waste three years of salsa practice to look like i don't know what i'd doing! hahaha ok i'm bitter. i think it's just cuz in winnipeg there is an abundance of creepy guys and they have come to realize that it's easy to prey on single girls salsa dancing. they see that it's easy to just to ask a girl to dance and most times they say yes. so whether or not they know how to dance the opportunity to hit on a girl is there. all i have to say is...EEW! and i have to go to empire more often to see who i have to avoid.

another salsa issue. i hate cliques. and the politics that are involved in salsa dancing. i'm in salsa limbo because i've had three different instructors that don't get along with each other. i dont have a salsa clique of my own anymore, that's a dramatic issue on its own. and i don't really know the other dancers. *sighs* i'm just getting back into salsa and this subculture is really difficult to become a part of again. hehe you didn't know salsa was so dramatic did you? if you only knew some of the stories i did. you would be surprised.

salsa issue number three. i don't have a salsa partner. which really sucks. does anyone want to be my partner? *sighs*

ooh the girls were all together at empire again. it was great times. even though i've seen andrea once a month since july =) and i'll see her again next year. after empire, mel and i headed off on an adventure and had coffee at tim hortons till five in the morning. what would we possibly be talking about for three hours? catching up on every single event that's happened since july hahahaha and i'm sure we could've stayed for another three hours, but we were getting really sleepy and we just wanted to pass out! so much fun gossiping, talking about marriage, high school, our crazy bar star summer last year, magic cards lol and boys. boys. boys. hehe nothing changes =)

anyways, i should head off to practice. at least i'll get better regardless of the crappy salsa environment winnipeg has left me. and at least i'll be prepared for when i'm living in toronto or montreal. =)

stonger.

too many hobbies

lately i've been trying to keep myself busy. just packing everything into one day. it helps keep me occupied. hard to think about anything else except how busy busy busy you are. but lately it's been getting a little excessive. i've gotten into the bad habit of taking 2-3 hour naps from 2am to 4 or 5am and then getting up to study. then later on have a quick nap. then start my day all over again.

when i become passionate about something, it just consumes me. in less than a week i have been introduced to rock climbing, played indoor volleyball for the first time in years, and started taking salsa dancing lessons again. all that on top of school, my gym routine, work, writing and aiesec. i forego sleep, so i can fit all of these things into my life. each elicits certain qualities and skills that define me as a person. and i can't give any of them up. or give up any of them for a second time =)

salsa dancing: sexy, grace, balance, self confidence
volleyball: competitiveness, team building, agility
rock climbing: motivation, strength, persistence, focus, endurance
gym: endurance, perseverance, discipline
school: intelligence, discipline, self motivation, goal oriented
work: professionalism, communicating, independence
writing: self expression, creativity, focus, individuality
aiesec: time management, cultural understanding, goal oriented, leadership, inspirational

ok so a lot of these characteristics overlap from one to another. and there are so many i can't even list them all. it's hard to let one or the other go for now since i have been exposed to each of them in the past week. especially since i managed to balance my time between them all. the only thing that has been disrupted is my sleeping pattern. i'm facing a dilemma. what should i do? i'm way too dedicated for my own good. i am not a quitter.

wait i am! so it has been three whole days since my last cigarette and i'm still standing. mostly because my time has been utilized to the maximum capacity =) so really there is no time to smoke. it might be psychological but i feel great! i have so much support from everyone! but my main motivation is that i don't want to disappoint myself by being weak. so i'm going to hack this for as long as i can. but so far it hasn't been very difficult. and i haven't been tempted to cheat. hopefully some of my good friends will allow me to lead by example, and follow suit to fight the nicotine battle =) remember, i'm a born leader and i will make sacrifices to help others help themselves. i will be your cheerleader if you let me hehe. anyways for some reason i'm inspired! i think i'm going to give myself some recognition. "GO MEESA! THREE WHOLE DAYS WITHOUT A CIGARETTE! YOU CAN DO IT! YOU CAN DO IT! GOOD JOB! THAT'S WONDERFUL! KEEP IT UP! KEEP IT UP!"

i want a french boy! i have decided that i'm moving to montreal instead of toronto hehe well maybe. there is nothing like the french and how even in the simplest way they make you feel important and loved and beautiful and like you are the only girl that exists in the world. *sighs* french boys *blushes* they are wonderful to have around when you are in need of an ego boost. maybe it's just their accents that are mesmorizing and then nothing makes sense anymore, except that you always and forever want to have a french boy. arnault, i can't wait until we are together in paris..and then you can find me a real friend boy =) someone just like you *giggles*

anyways, everything, well almost everything, has been falling into place lately. school is going awesome even though i was off to a rough start this year. work, i still love my job after five months. aiesec, my term is coming to an end, but i have been extremely successful as vpmd. social life, i still have time for my friends, hell i even make time for my friends in toronto which means i have time to party and yes get drunk. i have tons of hobbies to keep me busy, keep me young, and make me that much more interesting (i'm not as one dimensional as everyone thinks i am) and i'm breaking some bad habits =) but most importantly i'm happy!

strong. yay!

day one

i went all day without a smoke. sure i was a little edgy but i think this is doable...it didn't last very long and i just took my frustrations out on other things.

bah super frustrated with rock climbing. i give up too easily. my body is just exhausted i'm getting sick again and i never let it rest. and gia's coming in this weekend from tdot...i need some sleep but im never gonna get it. anyways sheri and allan came out to rock climb! and i think they enjoyed it! whowhwohw welcome to the club.

boy number two waited exactly three days to call lol i'll give him credit. well maybe not. haha i'm pretty sure i wont date the guy, but im always down for meeting new people. when i'm not so busy. his friend was fun lol maybe we can all go for drinks =) anyways...what did i tell you guys about me having a lil too much to drink. boys. and giving out my number.

something ed said to me the other day keeps going through my head. it was so unexpected, but probably one of the most inspiring things i've heard in a long time. ahh i needed that. thanks. good talks.

so day one. and i'm still alive. addiction number one: take that! hiyah! addiction number two: coping.

strong. still.

cold turkey

i finally decided to quit smoking. i think it's going to be pretty rough for a little while. it's going to be worth it though. i feel like my lungs are going to collapse every time i go to body combat class. and i've picked up volleyball again, so i'm going to need all of the lung capacity i can get. i've been pretty health conscious lately (chiropractic adjustments, regular exercise, eating healthier) that i'm just a hypocrite if i continue smoking. i think the only things that will get me through this is caffeine and alcohol. those are vices i can't give up hahah

i'll also do it for my mommy. she's wanted me to quit for a long time. and i hate that she's disapointed in me. she's been pretty liberal at rasing me and allowed me to make my own choices. but i guess it hurts her to think that i chose to get addicted to something so detrimental to my health.

i've also decided to give up one more bad habit.

so yah i really really really need your support. i apologize in advance for being cranky and snappy. it's only temporary, i promise.

i can motivate myself. its like rock climbing. one step at a time. no matter how furstrated i get, i'm going to reach the top.

wish me luck!

will power. will power. will power. will power.

strong. for now.

the good ol' days

whoa it's been a while since i've updated. and i'm a little inspired to write. even though i've written two articles for a newsletter and i've been trying to get an editorial published this week. =) i never say that writing is an interest of mine, i think because i've always had a book, and a journal, and a blogger. it's a favorite pastime that i don't really acknowledge. i love to write. there i've said it.

weekly update:

monday: congratulations martin! lcp elections were intense, but i know you will do an "amazing" job as lcp! i'm so glad i didn't run for president. too much pressure! but i know you do a fantabulous job leading aiesec manitoba next year!

tuesday: body combat. weights. rock climbing. yes i have a new obsession with climbing up a wall of fake rocks. hehe i don't know what is so addicting about rock climbing. mostly it's because it's so challenging and you're so motivated to reach the top. you're faced with all these challenges and you start on a path, and no matter how exhausted you are or how frustrating the direction you chose, you finally overcome those obstacles and reach the top. it's exhilarating that sense of accomplishment. then you come back down and set a new more difficult route and you start that whole process again. and every time you go up you learn from your mistakes and realize how easy it is to get to the top by just adjusting even the slightest move. you can apply it to life and i think it's changed my perspective. i've always been goal oriented, and i never would have thought that something so simple as rock climbing , could represent goal attainment through a more visual and hands on approach.

wednesday: more rock climbing. bar italia for chicken fingers and poutine and beer ahh the soothing effects of comfort foods.

thursday: meeting after meeting after meeting. then aiesec post midterm party at bar italia and the chicken quesadlla. yum i love bar i food! bumped into so many old friends from high school. it's funny how everything changes. and nothing changes. =) a week of reminiscing and getting back in touch with my past!

friday: i played indoor volleyball for the first time in years! it was great, even though i was frustrated by the fact that i'm not as good as i used to be. but hey at least i picked it up again and if i keep up with it, maybe i'll be better than i used to be in high school. =) went to liquid lounge and met up with the gang. chris and i were the only ones that drank. yay for beer! redan said i was "whiney rowdy" and me and chris were camera hogs. and i mean like literally fighting for the camera. hehe. i got hit on by a youngin, and then i recruited his friend to join aiesec. go vpmd!

saturday: my body said "i'm exhausted and i think i want to sleep all day." which i did. i pretty much vegged and couch potatoed it and watched the family channel and the food network. great shows hehe. then i finally rolled out of bed and headed out to ed's birthday party at rhosan's. i miss my high school friends. we lost touch for years and i'm glad to finally have the chance to reconnect with them all. it was so much fun catching up. and again it's like everything changes. and nothing changes. talking to everyone was so natural and we just picked up where we left off. gossiping was the best part, of course. and there was even gossip going around about me. so i had to clarify, confirm, and deny a bunch of things hehe so for that, i'm glad i showed up =) anyways, i know after today we'll all be great friends again. and make sure that we stay in touch. it's only now that i'm realizing how important these friendships have been to me, and i'm going to make sure i never take them for granted.

tomorrow: family day. regretfully, i have been neglecting my beloved family for silly things like getting hammered or you know, school. hehe so tomorrow it is time to reestablish those good ol' family ties. we'll make the best of it i guess. i just hope i don't get nagged for my messy room, my excessive shopping habit, and nicotine addiction.

that was my busy busy week in a nutshell.

weak-ish-ish

"too rowdy for words" - redan miranda

haha that pretty much sums up my weekend. and i never ever want to drink again. ok i wont say never. but i woke up with the worst headache and just felt icky all day. however, the pain i felt that morning was well worth it! the two socials i attended were so much fun. i couldn't imagine spending halloween any other way. the shocker social is always a good time and i've pretty much been waiting for it all year! it's definitely not a social anyone should miss =) everyone just loses all of their inhibitions and all of these social walls come down because everyone is all dressed up and playing a different role. the atmosphere is so different from any other social. it's hard to explain, but bottom line...no one really gives a fuck because midterms are over and every one just wants to get hammered hehe

anyways. apparently i suppress a lot of things. and just babble on about being weak and "wiggle" a lot haha when im extremely inebriated. my verbal diarrhea doesn't stop and i have to apologize constantly. so yah sorry guys haha.

dudes. whenever i'm drunk and i lack in judgment. please please please don't let me give my number out to strange men. lol isn't there a three day rule or something? dudes called me like 4 times already! and who knows what my beer goggles were thinking at the time. and red wants me to go out with him. no thanks! i don't want to go through that whole first date ish crap ever again! considering i still have weak-ish tendencies, i'm pretty sure that would be a bad idea. and knowing my luck, it would probably just end up badly hehe let's save the boy some trouble. i'm out of commission for the time being, i'm not gonna play that game anymore. ok fine...let's be optimistic. i still have hope. at least we know i'm not an ogre lol

ok so i'm pretty sure redan is frightened of me. he's never seen me get rowdy before. and he has too much evidence on his camera. here are the g-rated pics from the shocker: http://photos.yahoo.com/meesameesabebe i don't know if the xxx version is going to be available to the general public haha you'll have to ask red for those. haha ok maybe not that hardcore, more like pg-13. muahahahha .rowdy. i needed that. rowdy. rowdy. rowdy. but sorry if i scared you in the process red.

after party in the hotel = passed out

morning after. hung over. hot tub + jets = makes my stomach go whirly bleh. however the sauna was nice and relaxing.


"melissa. put that away!"
"dude. he's like eighteen!"
"who was that?" "I HAVE NO IDEA!"
"wow. you. are. rowdy."
"what are you? brittany spears?"
"it's furby!"
"let me guess, starsky and hutch?"
"ahh! who's eyelashes are these!"
"he's a giant penis!"
"hmm...what other positions can i do?"
"there's something liberating about wearing lingerie out in public."
"sorry my boom booms all up in your face." "don't worry i wasn't looking."
"i'm so weak. help."
"aynsley is this what europes gonna be like?"
"gangster."


halloween = good times. no great times.

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i didn't even have time to recover because i spent the rest of the day redecorating my room. i needed a change so now everything is all turned around. and i got a mosquito net, so its uber girlie now. pink everything. winnie the pooh everything. shopping bag decorations. pink rug. winnie the pooh blankets. all i need are throw pillows and i'm set haha

***

everyone needs to get a job where you can get a massage on your lunch hour. that was the greatest way to unwind after the crazy month that i've had. every single knot in my back and neck are gone. but the kick back pain is going to be intense. that was some crazy deep tissue massage haha

so much more to blab about...but tyc, watching documentaries and polictics on a friday night, and elections will have to wait till tomorrow...

weak? not weak? weak? not-so-weak? weak? weak-ish? not weak?