more and more good times =)

so karen and i finally had a chance to spend some qualitiy time together after months and months of being separated. yesterday we went to shapes and did some rock climbing! and kare did great =) it's so nice that kare and i have so many things in common, and that we share our interests with one another.

after climbing we headed off to earls with shaun and eugene. we were there for over three hours! we just had some great conversation that wouldn't end until we were finally the last table in the house and i think they wanted to kick us out cuz they were closing. anyways, i forgot how much i loved that kare always has some interesting story to tell, and you never run out of things to talk about with her. i think my friends really enjoyed her =) and i got to introduce karen to some tech (computer geek) guys who speak her (geek) language lol in many cases i couldn't figure out what any acronyms were, and my head started to hurt trying to understand what anyone was talking about. i was out numbered three geeks to one haha.

anyways, it was nice to see karen again, catch up and just chill out like old times. but it also makes me realize how much i miss her being so far away! i promised i would go out and visit her before the the summer. ooh and i finally got to see her georgeous ring! it's so perfect for kare! and so sparkly! i get all gushy every time she mentions "my finance" hehe i'm looking forward to a wedding in cuba...so i'd better start saving some money now!

well I wanted to sweep somethings under the rug before new years hehe but it's not gonna happen cuz i'm such a weakling. anyways, i guess it's gonna have to wait, or never happen at all. sorry gia, for disappointing you =(

well i'd better get ready for my trip! i haven't even started packing yet...and i still have a million errands to run! so i guess i should get to it! ahhhhhhhh!

i hope you all have a safe and happy new year and i will see you all in 2005!

panic mode.

a very merry christmas =)

yes santa was very kind to me this year! even though i probably deserved a lump of coal hehe but for some reason i got everything on my wish list and then some. from a pink ipod mini with "meesa" engraved on it (SHUT UP AS IF!) to rock climbing gear and vertical adventure passes to pedi/manicure gift certs, and of course pajamas are a must around christmas time. it's only because we have an extremely small family in winnipeg so everyone gets something huge for xmas.

anyways, on christmas we had a bunch of people over godparents, godsisters, friends. my godkids and my mom's friends foster kids were over too! they made me want to have my own kids! i love babies and teenies they're so much fun to have around. they're so entertaining! it's funny how another part of your brain works when you're around kids, like how ur imagination goes a mile a minute. fun just means playing with a discarded cardboard box. how much a hug or a kiss on the cheek can put a smile on your face. how many questions they can ask in a row because they're so damn curious. how they get attached to you so quickly that where ever you go they want to curl up in your lap or have you're attention 100% of the time "meeesaa, come here! let's go find the monsters!" "meeessaa look at me look at me!" hehe and no matter how tired you are a lil giggle can set you off to just pick the lil tyke up and hug them like there's no tomorrow =) oh the simplicity of being a child.

after the kids went home, we decided to play cranium the canadian version. which is ridiculously stupid because we don't know anything about canada hehe so we used the american booster box questions. it's kinda sad that we had to use the american version to dumb down the game.

boxing day was not fun. i think i'm too impatient to do boxing day shopping. i really just wanted to go to the mall to say i was free from retail once and for all and i really meant what i said last year...that i wouldn't work another boxing day ever again. i specifically went to my old store to point and laugh at all the lifers like julie who has been there for more that six years! i had a quick chat with her and she tried to hit me with a pole lol never again will i set foot in a mall on the twenty-sixth of december!

andrea's moms 50th birthday was yesterday. i love parties that involve latin music and line dancing =) good times since the four chicas were reunited! we exchanged gifts and mel, france, gia, and i found out that we know each other oh so very well. especially in the reasons and types of presents we got each other hehe

anyways, i'd better get back to putting my transition guide together for erica vice-president member development elect! wowhwohwowhwohwohwowh so much fun training someone to finally take over my portfolio! woohoo!!

good times =)

i want to start the new year off with a clean slate...

confrontational. andrea i need your support in "these trying times" =)

happy belated birthday mushroom kid! happy birthday stinks!

happy belated birthday to francine my mushroom kid. even though we were supposed to celebrate on friday at bar i...and she even invited all those people to go. and she even promised me she would go...but pulled shaft! i still wish her the best on her twenty-third birthday! oh well i celebrated enough for the both of us lol

and happy twenty-second birthday to the baby of the bunch less...even though he's celebrating in t-dot and wouldn't let me take him out for his big day hehe i still wish you the best too!

so happy happy birthday shouts to both of you!


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so today was a fun filled day of climbing! i went to va and i attacked the yellow route in one try hehe well ok fine one try and a half hehe but i still did it and it felt great! newbie dennis even gave climbing a try! and i think he enjoyed himself except for his feet hurting because...yah...hehe

anyways i'll be back on thursday. i think i have to give myself one day recovery before i head out there. body combat and climbing one day. then climbing at va the very next day. it get's a lil exhausting. but very well worth it =)

we all went for some eats at bp after climbing. mmm...ribs hehe anyways i've made some great friends through climbing as i mentioned in the previous post. and i met a new girlie climber anya, who is also another salsa dancer in the bunch! wowhwohwowhw so i have more people to go to empire with! woohoo more estrogen in the club! we need some balance, some yin and some yang hehe anyhoots...climbing is a lot like aiesec or salsa to me. you're either all in it...or you're out. well i guess it's really like anything that you are passionate about. when you really think about it...the reason why you're so passionate in the first place is because of the people you surround yourself with. the people who encourage you. and the people you work together with to achieve your goals. when it comes down to it, the most valuable thing i will gain from salsa or climbing or aiesec or whatever are the friendships that i have made =)

continuing along with the eventful climbing day, i finally got my fedex tracking reference which means my rock climbing shoes are on their way! ooh i've waited so patiently. and for waiting this long evolv sports has graciously waived the shipping and brokerage fees. so i paid so much less for my shoes from the states even with the exchange, than shoes from mountain equipment co-op without the tax! woohoo! i ordered three or four pairs of the same shoe in different sizes. so all i have to do find one that fits and return the ones that don't. the only thing that sucks is i'm going to be in calgary when the shoes finally arrive. so i wont get to use them until the new year. oh well...i'll just be more excited to come home and climb!

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ok school hasn't stressed me out since before midterms...so why do i feel stressed out after finals??? christmas is three days away and i'm not done my shopping yet!

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i stopped counting the days i quit smoking. one because i lost count. two because it's old news haha so yada yada. i quit. good for me. blah.

miscommunication sucks! and i think its getting worse.

never mix beer with zambouka, jack daniels, or tequila...it's painful.

that explains my excruciating hangover on saturday morning. i accidentally scheduled a meeting at my bank at 11 am...but i made it. and i think i was still drunk hehe i'm sure i smelled like an alcoholic too.

anyways we went to bar italia for my no reason except it's friday thing. the people that said they'd show up didn't...and the people i wasn't expecting to be there showed up. a lil strange. but everyone seemed to be having a good time! anyways my goal was to get extremely drunk and that i was =) i don't remember a whole lot about the night, and my perspective was really off. because a bunch of us went to cara's after bar i closed and i swear i only thought i was there for 30 minutes but apparently we were all there for more than two hours hehe

a bunch of my climbing friends showed up my newest of new friends. and they're pretty much the only people i see on a regular basis. but it was fun seeing them in a different environment outside of the gym. we're all normally in sweats and my hair is always in pigtails and stuff. but we all clean up nice ("shaun is that gel in your hair?" and "mel you don't look eighteen today...maybe twenty-one...definitely not twenty-two." all i know is that i've made some great friends (and i hope they're still my friends after friday lol) and it was never my intention when i got a harness thrown at me the first day i decided to try climbing. so that is definitely an added bonus =) i hope i didn't embarrass myself too much...maybe it's a good thing that don't remember a whole lot! well jc still made plans with me to go to empire on saturday so that's a good sign hehe. so i found a new salsa partner in the whole climbing bunch! wowhwowo now that is definitely an added bonus!

on the subject of climbing hehe i've been so patiently waiting for my rock shoes to come in...but they've been sold out for the past few weeks...so i'm getting brand new rock shoes straight off the production line! hehe how sweet is that. plus i don't have to pay for shipping or duty! that saves me so much money! so i'm waiting for my chalk bag with flowers. and one day i'll get a harness to match lol i'm excited woohoo

and i'm going to vertical adventures on tuesday so i can tackle those stupid routes that have been bothering me since i was last there.

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today was aiesec's secret santa potluck and joao's cultural presentation night. so much fun! i learned a lot about the drug scene in brazil =) ok, ok... in all seriousness this is the highlight of aiesec, when our trainee prepares a presentation about their home. it gives us an opportunity to learn about another culture. and then you realize that they've given up a lot to learn about our culture. it makes you realize how big this world is...and how much i want to get out there and explore it all. go aiesec hehe

for the secret santa gift exchange i got a alexander keith's beer glass set kinda thing from mitch. how appropriate! hehehe good times.

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anyways i feel so inept at the moment. i don't think anything i'm writing is making any sense. i've lost too many brain cells this weekend and i feel like i'm still recovering even two days later. i'll write more when i feel a lil smarter.

incompetent.

karen's engaged =)

so i was home on a saturday night studying my ass off when i get this phone call from karen. she calls me every so often so i just thought she was calling to chit chat. and that's what we did for the first minute or so. then somehow she snuck in "i'm engaged!" and then all of the squealing and giggling and the omg hehehe i always knew she would get married. the ring and proposal were just formalities =) but now we can say it's official!

kare is living my hypothetical marriage path. she started dating kurt when she was 22 (i think) engaged by 25 and then married by 26-27. i'm 22 and no where even near that lol i'm a lil green hehe but still i'm crazy happy for karen and kurt! i hope one day i'll be as happy, romantic, and so much in love as they are =)

karen and i have watched many renditions of cinderella-ish chick flicks. and it's made me really believe in fairy tales, so i know there's still hope for me. anyways, karen found her prince charming. hehe now she has to help me find mine!

still giggling. but the secrets out!

let the binge drinking begin...who wants in?

plans are booking up quickly...this is gonna be a rough week but well worth it!

tuesday: gym and climbing then smittys for wings and beer
wednesday: climbing then freehouse with david for beers
thursday: tyc it's ladies night
friday: bar italia
saturday: diana's anti-commerce social party byob
sunday: secret santa and joao's cultural presentation potluck and byob

i think by thursday night it will start to hurt meh it's like an aiesec conference six consecutive days of drinking. i can't wait!

whoa this is gonna be one expensive weekend. and i hope i don't gain poundage from all the beer drinking. hardcore gym sessions being next week!

who wants to join in all the alcoholism?

all giggles. i know a secret =)

bittersweet.

ever hear a song that you haven't heard in a long time, and it just takes you back to the time you first heard it. and you remember quite vividly. where you were and what you were doing at that very moment from the time of day, how crisp the air was, how the wind felt blowing through your hair, what shoes you were wearing. hehe that happened to me today! and at first i went *sighs* and then =) and then *giggles* and then lol'd. oh memories are fun =) and this one was definitely more sweet than bitter lol but then again i remember the last time i heard the song. definitely more bitter than sweet...hehe but nonetheless i think the next time i hear the song i'll probably giggle to myself. hehe

too bad studying doesn't bring back vivid memories like that haha. imagine i could open a text book read the phrase "multiple predetermined overhead rates" and i could remember 14 chapters of the textbook that i've read just by hearing that one phrase haha

i was very productive with my studying today, only after five hours of crappy studying. i found a more efficient way to retain information, and i had to start from point a again... but other than that lil kink, i'm gonna kick managerial accountings ass in the final too! hi-yah!

my actions (or lack thereof) speak way louder than words. i've been so insensitive in the past lil while, and i only have excuses to "justify" the "lack of actions." at least i can admit i have a problem lol. changing my attitude is another story =) i'll fix it...i promise after exams...

ok there's my random blog. even though my brain is like jello, i'm gonna go have fun retaining more useless information. but only long enough to write the exam, and then rid myself of managerial accounting once and for all!

all smiles =)

immune to redbull

so i had my fix of redbull today, trouble is i've had two naps in the past two hours. i've also had two cups of coffee. do you think they cancelled each other out? anyways, i haven't mastered the art of sleeping at school in a crappy chair in a old stinky building with no heat. and the drool factor doesn't help my discomfort lol

anyways its my break time and i'm planning out what i want to do after exams:
1) go christmas shopping
2) make my christmas stuff (cookies, presents, wrapping paper, cards, etc)
3) have my one month smoke free/exams are over/it's friday/don't need an excuse to drink lil shindig at bar i on the 17th
4) go ice skating at the forks
5) go to diana's anti-commerce party and play hold em on the 18th
6) secret santa a martin's on the 19th
7) prepare turnover documents for erica at our meeting on the 21st
8) go to the gym three times a week and climbing twice a week
9) job hunt for toronto next summer
10)go to a financial advisor find $$$ to fund my move to toronto and trip to europe
11)clean my room and the rest of the house so i wont be embarassed when shauna comes to visit
12)pack and get ready for calgary then get the hell outta winnipeg for a week!

MELSHAUNGIA: it's like sushi but better. you can get us in a bento box. oh shauna i can't wait till our craziness is back together again =) well...i guess andrea is included too...the melshaungia show. and to think it started all because of the melshauna remixes and karaoke. SHAUNA in TOBA? what???? in january too. lol u'll have fun just freezing your ass off!

ok so it's been OVER a month since i quit smoking and i've saved myself approximately $120 so what was my reward for good behaviour? i bought myself some rock shoes =) yay! well more like i finally paid my sister back lol it's so nice having extra money, and lung capacity =)

sleepy.

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chillin for fifteen more minutes.

hmm...

reality check:"Your eyes are clouded. Your mind is closed. Do not be so arrogant as to believe that you understand - others, yourself, fears, motivations, pains, relationships... Do not assume. Do not presume. Do not embrace. Do not disregard. In essence, suck it up, and simply be." sometimes you surprise me.

i was snooping, and i come across lil' blog quotes like this. how convenient, or perhaps conincidence. i had a similar conversation with someone today and it went something like this quote. anyways. i especially liked the "philosphy of peanuts." i wish i had something more interesting to blog about. i'm not witty or insightful. most of what i write is complete fluff. and anything worth publishing has been sent off to the editorial section in the newspaper or in my hidden book.

there's something different from actually writing in a book then blogging. you can't just erase a whole page or cut and paste. your brain just flows out of your pen and there's nothing you can do but keep writing. you don't have to worry about being so candid. or anyone being offended. or being real.

not that i don't love blogging cuz i love keeping my friends from far away places informed. i just wish i had enough guts to show a different side of me other than "wow, she's partied every weekend since i've been reading her blog." lol which is almost true hehe anyways i've conditioned myself to brush things off, and suck it up (ask me why lol) i always have a lot more to say than i ever let on. but i try not to express myself in a way that would make me appear weak. whoa, this is as real as i'll ever get on this blogger...lol enough of that =)

c'est la vie.

study whore information overload.

lump of coal.

that's what santa is definitely going to bring me for x-mas =) i'm a naughty naughty girl. i'm talking about my rudeness in the previous post...duh! i'll be better santa. i take it back! i make kick ass shortbread cookies! i'll leave you some...as long as you don't bring me a lump of coal!!!

ok back to studying even though i was sitting in school for hours and hours and hours. on a saturday yet...

not so grumpy.

bahumbug!

f*ck x-mas. lol. just kidding. it's the most wonderful time of the year and i was so in the christmas spirit. tra-la-la-la-la-ing along to christmas music. planning out what kind of cards i was going to make. preparing my mailing list. i even bought my lil' stocking stuffers that i was going to give out during my lil' christmas gathering...except no one sounds too enthused about my whole christmas card making and cookie baking and party planning efforts. so BAHUMBUG no christmas for you or you or you. and i had great lil' gifts too. GREAT lil' gifts. haha. event planning sucks. screw you guys =)

cranky.

"it's not how it seems"

today while procrastinating, i figured that i should sort out the millions of emails on my one gig gmail account. i stumbled upon one of the first emails i received on my new account. and it was one from rommel after my birthday. i totally forgot about it, but there was this poem he wrote "it's not how it seems", and it made so much sense at the time. and it makes even more sense right at this very moment. anyways, i decided to print it out this time and keep it close, so when i'm ever in need of inspiration...i will always have it to refer to =)

anyways, reading that email made me think of a simpler time. like high school, and video game days, and summertime, and staying out all night, and cabin trips, and beach days, and running around the forks etc when we could all just hang out without a worry in the world. i always say that i'm never going to take my friends for granted, but it's hard not to when you're go go go. it hit me really hard how much i miss my friends after i read rom's email. and it really made me resent school, work, and extra curricular activities.

i'm so busy, and i'm not even going to be home for new years again, and i have all these events from the time after exams and before i leave...and i haven't even had a chance to plan anything with my friends and it's only december 3rd and my calendar is all booked up...i only see a handful of you on a regular basis, birthday parties, or aiesec events haha and unless you're in aiesec office i don't see you at school hehe *sighs* i thought i saw way more of you guys, but i think i was mistaken lol it's more like i bump into you guys for a brief moment and then you're gone...=P being back in school is such a lonely and depressing time. now i know why i spent every single moment of every single day in the summer with my friends. no matter how sleep deprived i was =) i miss you guys...someone call me before i cry hehe

i'm itching to go rock climbing...for more reasons than one hahaha i visualized my first attempt on each of the routes and i was writing them down while i was in class today so i wouldn't forget. i know i'm kind of a loser but it's all good hehe i'm determined to finish without cheating! it's gonna be another week till i get out to shapes =( so i wont be able to tackle the wall until tuesday. i can't wait till exams are over...

ok study whore mode.

inspired. finally.