picture time

so when i study for days and days at a time. there is a point where i just can't retain anymore information. and i will throw up if i try to to pick up a book and a highlighter. i think i'm at that point. i'll probably take a nap and then hit the books again at 2 or 3.

anyways, to distract myself for a short time, i usually go to redan's imagestaion where his 4000 pictures are stored. i think they bring me to a happy place, cuz there are tonnes of crazy pictures from the good old days. which is so much better than learning about stocks and bonds or the time value of money or nominal and real cash flows.

redan has had his camera for a couple of years and he's been my personal photographer ever since =) hehe he takes great stolen shots and it's great to look back at his pics. he has a knack for capturing the moment, and no matter how many months have gone by, you feel exactly as you did when that picture was taken. i never ever get bored of his pics.

so what i did was take out a few of the thousands of pics that redan has of me and posted them on my blog for you to see. don't ask me why these are my favorite pics. they just make me laugh or smile or giggle. i think they're great anyways.

the most favorite pics that red has are from halloween and this one day we all went to bar italia. the halloween ones were great, some of them i cant even post up! and the bar itlia ones were of me and chris when we turned into camera hogs and were fighting for redan's attention with the camera. so many great times redan has caught on "flim." and it just makes me smile to remember all of those simple times.

anyways, redan has some of the greatest pictures and hopefully one day he'll let you see them all.


enjoy =)

chillin' at bar italia 

kevin and me at bar italia 

aynsley and me on halloween 

cheers at bar italia 

halloween on the balcony 

being silly at bar italia 

cabin fever and just some random blogging

no. not the crazy skiing trip i went on this past january in toronto. the actual cabin fever. i've been stuck at home studying for three days straight. it just so happens that the weekend before the crazy exam, everyone decides that they need to go clubbing. like everyone. so the phone is constantly ringing and everyone is asking if i want to go to the bar. and i say no i can't i'm studying for a big test. so collectively, the amount of times i was inturrpted by a phone call and declined the invitation and reread the chapter, was probably the same amount of time as agreeing to the first phone call and actually going to the bar. i didn't even get a chance to see "garry" this weekend. maybe next week we could reschedule our "hot date" lol

boourns for school.

i am slowly going crazy 1-2-3-4-5-6. switch. crazy going i am slowly 6-5-4-3-2-1.

distracted

i'm finding every excuse possible to interrupt my studies. there are only a certain amount of hours where i can stay focused. and then i get really restless and find silly things to do, like:

-watch garry the climbing machine trailer a couple times
-alias break
-blogged a couple times
-uploaded my pictures from the conference in january
-took a tutorial on how to design effective business cards. i decided on a theme, color scheme, and the information that's going to go on the business cards. now i just need someone to design and print them for me.
-then i thought i need a matching online resume and a link on my business cards
-then i blogged again.
-now i'm going back to studying.

whore. study whore, that is.

me and shauna in montreal  

bon voyage, shauna!

shauna is off on a study exchange to paris, fr-ah-nce. "le sighs" what am i gonna do without her pg-13 stories, and macadamian chocolate nuts, and melshauna remixes, and random trips to tdot and having lots of girlie fun? now you're even further away and i can't tell you stories about married guys, or my crazy friends, or the life in toba that you will always love.

anyways, here is the blog entry dedicated to only you, cuz i know you read my blog hehehe make sure you use those bags of goodies, and you have to check out the potential out there, and save one for me for when we're together in paris! we love the french. oh we so do =)

i hope you find your luggage with all of your crazy clothes for three seasons and only six months.

till the melshauna show is reunited. *muah and hugs*

garry: "the climbing machine" =) 

snowboarding withdrawl

i've been bitten by the snowboarind bug. its been a week since the trip to holiday mountain. it was absolutely perfect! thanks to mitch and pedro for helping me put this event together, and to everyone for showing up! woohoo good times =) we'll do it again before the season is over hehe

we headed out to la riviere to enjoy the beautiful weather, soak in the sun, and play in the snow =)

i picked up shaun and ryan ay 6 am, to meet up with mitch, mike, heather, and pedro at holiday mountain. the drive out there was quick because i was going 130 for most of the way hehe we had fun listening to lenny kravitz, no doubt and vanilla ice, until shaun broke my ipod. no music for you...

we finally got to holiday mountain and it was just georgeous outside! it was 9am and it was warm and sunny and just perfect! we hit the bunny slope hehe and i pretty much learned how to snowboard by trial and error. which pretty much meant i was falling on my ass all day! the problem was carving left. which i will master next time! but oh well i still tried one run a couple times, even though i tumbled down the entire way hehe i was still giggling and still having fun. at least you can't say i didn't try nor did i give up. i boarded from 10am to 5pm!

the ride home wasn't so bad hehe we were sans musique thanks to shaun and breaking the ipod on the way there, my bum hurt in a bad way so i was whiney the entire way home, i'm scared of driving on the highway at night, i hit a poor bird and screamed like no tomorrow, i got a cramp in my leg and screamed and whined even more and shaun had to drive the rest of the way home, and we were all tired as hell. but other than that it was a fun lil car ride with the boys! i'm looking forward to another snowboarding trip in the weeks to come!

my bum still hurts. but it was a perfect day so it was well worth it =)

too cute =)

cara sent this pic to me last night. that sure made me feel better =)
 

hipocricy

the practice of professing beliefs, feelings, or virtues that one does not hold or possess; falseness.

why is it when i have a slight inclining about something, a feeling towards someone, regardless if i'm right or wrong, i'm considered hurtful and completely in the wrong. but when someone has certain feelings about me, whether they are right or wrong, it's condsidered their truth? people will be judgemental, and people will get the wrong impression of you, and people can preciveve things differently that you do. it's human nature. miscommunication is going to happen, especially when thrid and fourth parties are involved. contradictions are endless. the guilty parties will feel attacked. the victims will feel some resolution. trust is no where to be found.

confrontations are one thing. being ambushed is another. and the worst part of it all, is that you have a million and one things to say to defend your position, except you only have one option: to hold your tongue, because either a)you're going to be opinionated in a strong loud voice in a public, or b) there's a lump in your throat so large from holding back the tears, that it's made it impossible to say a word.

bottom line: there is third and fourth party miscommunication that got crossed between the first and second party. and regardless of how much something has been taken out of context, feeling were hurt.

uncertain.

how's that for karma

what goes around comes around lol in a big way. crappy day. followed by winnipeg $500 bucks. to another SHITTY day. i just want a happy medium day. you know nothing eventful. a girl can wish though.

anyways. kevin's dans la maison c'est bonne c'est tres tres bonne super chanson never fails to bring me to giggles =) but i swore on my most embarassing moment that i wouldn't let it get into the hands of the public lol i think he's got way more on me than i do of him so i'd better be careful =)

cara's leaving today and i wish she could stay to enjoy reading week with me. oh well i get to write good things about her in the article we're sending for the aiesec newsletter...it will be fun you guys i promise.

kev and cara never fail to make me feel a whole lot better!

woot woot snowboarding in one more day =)

crossroads

i get into this state every year around miterm time. where i evaluate every aspect of my life. school. career. aiesec. friends. relationships. etc...every aspect intertwines with one another and it just becomes this whole mess in my brain when i'm trying to logically evaluate each situation.

a bunch of random thoughts that go through my head every so often:
-i'm not as close to my friends as i used to be. are there other reasons than just "i'm so busy"
-my aiesec career is coming to an end and a lot of the opportunities i would like to take or wish i took are not going to be there because i sacrificed furthering my aiesec career by committing myself to other things
-am i going to stay in winnipeg for the summer of move to toronto...i have three months to decide
-still boyfriendless..and yet another v-day alone hehe oh the torture =) jokes.
-when am i ever going to finish school

the aiesec one is huge though. cuz i can't avoid the millions of emails i get a day from all of these aiesec opportunities i'm going to miss out on. everyone said i would regret it...and somehow i think i am. i would have loved to be president, or go on a ceed, or go on a traineeship. but i was only thinking of taking a break from it all because it's made my life so hectic. but i keep forgetting that as busy as my life got or as stressed out i was, i was doing something that mattered to me. it was important in my life. only now as i have become a reject, and i dont have as much tasks and duties on my plate as i used to and i see my friends moving on to different leadership roles, and i have more free time and less aiesec stuff...i realize that it was a huge part of my life that i have taken for granted. i don't even know what to do with myself now that i dont have a lot of aiesec work. it's so sad! i had a very successful year as vice-president member development. and i think i had the potential to do great things in aiesec. but for now, i don't think i will ever get to know what role i could have had in moving aiesec forward, or how much more i could develop myself in taking all of those opportuinites that aiesec has given me.

what to do? what to do?

oh well there's snowboaring on saturday so i can take it out on the mountain =) wohwowhwohw i'm super excited to go boarding for the first time ever! we can check that one off of the to do list =)

bummed.

how's that for karma?

i won $500 on HOT103 after i had the crappiest couple of days! that totally made my i dunno day week month year? whatever! money ooh it makes me happy! but if it wasn't for my sister i wouldn't have won it in the first place. so she's getting special treatment on her bday! a weekend of snowboarding and gear and all =)

even though i was extremely hysterical and giggling...it was so embarassing when people called me up and told me that they just heard me on the radio! but whatever i still won half a grand =) just for calling HOT103 =) and telling frankie hollywood whta the double play was hahah

but two things still bum me out:
1) boys and their silly leading you on techniques. will i ever learn? i'm so foolish sometimes. well ok maybe i'm just very passive. and i don't ask the right type of questions. and moving relationships along from plutonic to something more is not my specialty. i blame it on silly boys. boys suck. i'll never learn. i've offically become pessimistic about relationships. boo for valentines day and its forever torment on bitter single people.

2) i'm quickly becoming a reject. ex-vpmd...where is my aiesec experience going to take me next? *sighs* this year has gone by too fast. turnover starts in like 15 hours. still bittersweet! i'm excited though...cuz i get to corrupt new aiesec executives into the the world of the unknown...muahahahhaha are u afraid? i mean for year planning...duh...=)

on another bittersweet note: i want to say a big congratualtions to dennis and lindsey for making it onto the member committee for aiesec canada! you guys, i'm so proud of you both! but i'm also sad that you will be leaving me to go do bigger and better things. but nonetheless you guys deseve it and i wish you both the best of luck with the exciting year ahead of you!

frustrated but with a smile of my face lol.

just when you think things are bad...they always get worse...

thanks to those who made my poo poo day brighter. hehe those that turned my frown upside down =)

thank you:

mitch
-for helping me organize the snowboarding trip next week =)
-for taking me shopping for gear hehe
kevin
-for the "dan la maison super chanson" if you play it on repeat 4 times you have an entire song lol
-for making me recount my most embarassing story. and then having all the feelings and emotions and blushing sensations of that moment vividly rush back
-for thinking that i stand out in a crowd and making me feel not so hideous =)
karen
-for letting me vent
-for the duck and dodge approach. distracting me with wedding planning and bridesmaid dress hunting =)
brett
-for your "brett-isms"
-for your cute charming dorkiness
-making me laugh with your hilarious stories
arnault
-for reminding me that one day we will be together in paris
-for always making me feel beautiful
-for always reminding me that im wonderful haha

i love you guys! near or far you always know how to make my day =)

weak wimp. but happy cuz i have great friends =)