dirty lil' secrets

everyone's got'em. it's just a matter of how well you can keep them a secret. what am i getting at you ask? for some reason i always get in way over my head...and then i find out these dirty lil' secrets (that weren't kept very secret) and i have to ask myself...how do i get myself into these situations? i always hope for the best, and then what happens. *boom* disappointment. don't people have consciences or feel guilty or worry about other peoples feelings? essentially, all guys are dogs, liars, cheaters, and not worth any of my time. honestly though, i haven't met a guy that hasn't lied to me (and withholding the truth is still considered lying right???) ok maybe i have only met one. hehe but hes not around anymore so...dogs. grr. ok, maybe i'm exaggerating, and generalizing half of the population. but i'm venting so i'm allowed.

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ok so i'm trying to make amends with unresolved issues of the past. one baby step at a time. step one. in the works. step two. interrupted.


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to kevin from calgary: i'm going to have to mention "my ass" for this blog to be awesome! so my ass. my ass. my ass. is awesome =) need to find more sexy pics. my ass. my ass.

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weekend update:
-chilled out with less for the first time in ages
-picked up diana and went to barca for red's
-red was already drunk and got there only half an hour before we did
-had a smoke...and yah...other stuff...that was fun and the drive home was not...
-saw red puke...hahah first year he wasn't solid na solid on his bday. finally.
-went snowboarding with shaun and ryan, and bumped into the curly haired duo (mitch and mark) at frostfire
-watched napoleon dynamite on the car ride there
-the weather was sooo nice i even got sunburned =)
-i finally learned how to toe carve! which meant i wasn't falling on my ass as much all day!
-good times even though shaun shafted me and ryan to go skiing. boo.
-watched the o.c. on the way home.
-until next snowboarding season i guess!

scum + dogs + lairs + cheaters = i need body combat and the rock wall to release. find me visualizing your faces at the gym tomorrow. grr.

salsa dancing rock climber...interesting combination =)

i had an awesome time at michelle and mauros below the equator brazillian social on friday night! i me up with some old friends and of course aiesecers, and had a blast getting our dance on to sexy latin beats =) i finally got to dust off my dancing shoes and hit the floor and practiced some moves with martin and manny who have improved 100% since i last dance with each of them! everything from bachata to merengue to salsa. i keep forgetting how much i love to dance, and i'm going to find some time to add lessons into my schedule once ag ain. anyways the night was good times! well except for those creepy stares and creepy psycho boy! haha other than that it was all good =)

on saturday i entered the brass monkey bouldering competition. i was reppin' shapes and the shapes ladies as i was the only girl from there that competed. like i said i didn't know what to expect, and i was super nervous and overwhelmed the entire night i climbed. but i had a wonderful time, aside from all the butterflies and confidence issues. anyways this comp is one like i've never seen before. everyone is supporting everyone and helping each other out and motivating and cheering you on. it's more of a challenge against your own abilities, rather than pitting you against your competition. and issues with confidence don't come from others, they come from inside your own head, and your support mainly comes from those who your trying to beat! anyways, it was wonderful to experience this with some of the greatest people i have met in the past lil while, the boys from shapes. without them i wouldn't have the ability or confidence to even consider entering the comp.. they've taught me everything i know, and i've learned from the best! they've all become great friends in and out of the gym. i don't know if i could ever describe how much i appreciate them =)

being my first comp, i didn't really know how to evaluate how well or how poorly i was doing through the course of the night. i had a scoresheet with checkmarks. that's it. i was so intimidated and doubted myself the entire night. but i climbed what i could and i made the most of the night. i had fun! i was giggling all night and i was meeting some of the most talented climbers =) anyways, my final climb of the night looked pretty good up until the last move and i fell! i thought the hold spun, but really my shoulder just popped out of place lol isn't that gross? luckily it was my last climb, so i handed in my scoresheet.

we watched the dino competition which was very exciting hehe and then finally...they announced the winners. chris, the lil shapes climber in training won third place in his youth division! it was a great feeling cuz i helped the lil tyke out for the first part of the comp. we were the blind leading the blind but we had a fun time helping and cheering each other on! yue-jeen won third place in his division! then dun dun dun...they announced the women's beginner division...and much to my surprise...they called my name for third place! 3140 points and 12 falls! un-fucking-believable! seriously i think it took me 5 seconds to register that they called my name. and during those 5 seconds all i could think was "is there someone else named melissa raquid. no there can't be...WHAT???" hahaha i was all giggles and in complete shock! it was a great feeling and that really boosted my confidence.

moral of the story i guess is, you never know unless you try. so challenge yourself you'll never know what you could accomplish unless you get over fear. do it up every time!

we all headed out to carlo and murphy's on osbore (so like me to talk about the food) but i have never been there before and they had the most amazing nacho's ever! and they have real sangria there! and the prices are pretty reasonable. it was just their bar menu since it was after midnight when we got there, but i'm sure their dinner menu is just as wonderful! i hope someone is nice enough to take me there again this week...someone...anyone...hehe

anyways a stupid lil tidbit lol cuz i thought it was funny. and i want to have some funny stories like diana always has in her blog! i got home and my shoulder just started to swell and hurt like a bitch (i think all of that cranking from parallel parking haha). and i was getting into my pj's and i realized that i couldn't lift my arm with the busted shoulder like more that three inches. so i had to wake up my mommy at 2am to help me get dressed! but bonus she like babied me for the rest of the night getting me stuff and ice packs. and setting up the couch so i could watch tv cuz i couldn't sleep cuz i was in so much pain. and then she stayed up with me and we chit chatted about the competition and about life and stuff. it was a great mommy and daughter night that we haven't had in a long time. so it was a nice way to end the day =)

so there's my weekend update.
cheers!

quality blog

just kidding. i haven't written one of those in ages! well maybe the blog might turn around in the end. but for now this is just mindless blogging. i don't think it's going to get any deeper than that.

"procrastination is like masturbation. in the end you're only fucking yourself." gotta love that quote.

so i watched the oc today! i watched the entire first season, and missed all of the break ups and hot lesbian action of season two. but the story line is right back where it left off...well sort of. ryan and marissa. seth and summer. just like it was meant to be =) hahaha

i decided to enter the brass monkey bouldering competition this weekend, but i needed a lot of coercing. a lil last minute and i'm probably not mentally prepared, especially since i don't know what to expect from a rock climbing competition. but i know i'm gonna have fun regardless of the outcome. everyone seems confident that i might do well in the comp. i guess i owe it my mentors who have made the effort to challenge me every time i've come out to the wall for the past couple of months. they have been so motivating and supportive, even though sometimes the boys use reverse psychology, or the boot camp drill sergeant yelling at you approach. the past few months of rock climbing has been a stress relief, muscle builder, good times, aggression taker outer, smoking replacement, confidence booster, motivator, social gathering, home away from home...the list goes on and on. anyways. to my mentors, my friends, i say thanks and here's to the next step. =)

damn. am i ever cheesy. corny. too sentimental for my own good.

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if you've known me for a very long time, paranoid might be one of the characteristics that you might use to describe me. and with good reason. it's my defense mechanism from getting hurt or disappointed. it makes you always second guess yourself (and others for that matter) and you always expect things to turn out badly. maybe that's more pessimism than paranoia. either way, i'm just starting to realize how naive i really am. i'm sure that a lot of people are genuine and have good intentions. but i guess i have some sort of issue with trusting people. i'll have to excerice that good ol' benefit of the doubt more often. dont judge me. because i dont judge. i just dont trust. is that gonna be a problem? hehe

physical activity, health, and wellness paper is a joke =) but back to writing it i guess...

my crazy md girls. leading by example =)

my md girls =) 

are 

rowdy 

what did i get myself into? trouble. that's what. as per usual =)

story of my life. we don't need to elaborate. maybe i will one day. when i need to vent. but i'm more naive than thought.

there's too much to update. here's the point form version:
-corp fi exam didn't spank me (as far as i know)
-ended my term as vice president member development and i'm currently coping. but i love my daughter erica and i know she's going to do an amazing job taking over =)
-aiesec trainee reintegration potluck. yummy food. good talks. good times!
-went skiing with shaun and ayns in the states. and had adventures stuck in morris.
-global connections was awesome. tyc was even better. red wine is awesome =) got my dance on. smoked a cigarette for the first time in 4 months. *slap on the wrist* never again. please don't share bad news with drunk meesa, i become irrational and wreckless *slap on the wrist* never again.
-dominika's going away part/sleepoever at cara's that the boys crashed.
-dominika left for london...
-watchd the entire first season of the oc
-went rock climbing at va with the boys. good times =)
-went to stonewall for a social in the country with cara. getting **** after drinking is not fun.

well that sums up my wreckless fun. until another update.

annoyed.