khai

first you pull shaft, because you dropped your keys down an elevator shaft. the worst excuse i've ever heard in my life.

then you tell me embarssing news.

then you insult me.

i have five words for you: i.am.mad.at.you.

the end.

i'm not that naive...

so the weekend without plans turned out to be a really good spontaneous weekend. even though all i wanted to do was catch up on some sleep! so here i go with the weekend in review, so i will forever remember this weekend haha sorry i wish i had something more philosophical or rant and rave-ish...but this is all i got for now:

friday: me, ayns, and jc ended up with all access passes to the winnipeg international film festival courtesy of van =) yay so we watched a short called smart card and sci-fi film called the girl from monday. it was a quirky film, and the premise of the movie was how corporations are controlling society and how commercialism is taking over our lives. but it kinda paints the picture in a really twisted sci-fi way with some kind of sex plot intertwined. it took me a while to analyze the movie to fully understand it...but anyway, it was a good experience to be a part of the film festival.

the all access passes included free cover and free drinks at au bar! so we headed down to moxies on portage for eats then headed down to au. we were only going to stay for a bit...except the first person i bumped into was worth staying the whole night for haha. so ayns and i stayed while van and jc went to an after party at the fairmont with all the film people. it seemed like just everyone was at au bar that night. so many weird things happened out on the patio haha and ayns witnessed first hand the degree of my mental problems as she saw a conversation between me and the boy =) lol struggle intimidation struggle haha

saturday: had supper over at rhoda's for her graduation bbq. and caught up with a few good friends. and i fell in love with her baby cousin! he stood by me for a second and i asked him "oh hi there! how are you?" he said "i'm good!" and then he saw the doggy in the cage and ran to his daddy and in a firm and slightly frightened voice to "daddy i'm scared. i'm really really scared. of the doggy!" very cute! and the highlight of my night was when he hugged me goodbye "bye meeeeleeeshhaa" haha

then off to aura's to pre-game with red wine and then off to empire we go. all the fun and drama that happened on the way there caused me and aura to run to the bar and consume two rounds in a span of 5 minutes hehe anyways bumped into the boy for a second night in a row =) cuz it was his happy happy birthday hehe but most of the time was spent with the girlies (christy, aura, kim and jer) singing to mariah carey at the top of our lungs! "Cuz it's my night No stress, no fights I'm leavin it all behind No tears, no time to cry Just makin the most of life Everybody is livin it up All the fellas keep lookin' at us Me and my girls on the floor like what While the DJ keeps on spinnin the cut It's like that y'all....." and just having a crazy time!

then there goes aura introducing me to every guy she thinks has potential again. all i hear is "he's cute!" "he's smart" "he's nice" hahah i think she feels bad for the last hook up gone bad haha like she's trying to redeem her match making skills. but i pretty much said "umm no thanks" haha i always tell people "if you love your friends....don't hook them up with your other friends" trust me =)

then there was christy's crazy stalker who followed us around the entire bar, even though we weaved in and out of the crowds of people. we finally lost them when we ran out into the rain and hid under an umbrella!

then there was that guy that went up to me and said "you work out at shapes" omg who is this guy? "i see you rock climbing all the time." yikes he was creepy!

finally, we head over to east ocean as per usual and have some yummy greasy post bar food. yum yum yum

sunday: hung over, i spent the entire day with my sister. we had lunch at her apartment, and then spent the rest of the day shopping and cruising around blaring bep with sunroof and windows rolled down! we saw the gay pride parade go by too haha that was fun.

well that's my weekend update.
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i dunno why people think i'm so gullible. i'm not completely oblivious to things going on around me. i just chose not to address the fact that i'm completely aware of them. i just have more tolerance for a lot of things because i've been through it all and i would be a hypocrite if i said i didn't relate or understand. maybe that's just the way i am. or i'm just too nice. but i know i'm not naive.

detoxin'

oh the debauchery! after a weeks straight of craziness, it's kinda nice to stay home for a change. maybe catch up on some reading =) woohoo summer reading! anyways, it's been a random week but, it has pretty much been the best week to kick off the summer, rain and all. but i can't play as much if i want to get out of the city. it's been an expensive week.

here's a replay if you're interested:

monday: went corydon with red. except we didn't quite make it down to corydon. cuz i got so ripped i wanted to pass out. haha my bed never felt sooOOooOoo comfy!

tuesday: went to bar italia with khai, and celebrated sheri's 23rd bday!

wednesday: just randomly ended up at liquid with roj, to meet up with red. and everyone happened to to be there for chris and everyone's grad or what not.

thursday: went to my weekly yoga class then ended up at bar italia with shaun and aynsley. yummy food and drinks and gelatis!

friday: empire with diana and heather, and the rounds of drinks from that crazy white guy haha

saturday: the best day ever this summer is saturday! ended up at empire again with france, kim, christy, and khai! and bumped into all of the most wonderfully good looking and handsome and charming guys that have ever come in and out of my life =) oh those boys freakin' made my day. week. month year whatever lol. they just. wow. yah. sighs. wow. hehe we then ended up at ken's for some eats...only because ocean's was packed. then came home to a very interesting call at 5 am that only leaves me to assume that it was not just a random drunken phone call... ok i wont assume. or at least i'll try not too hehe

sunday: ended up hungover at randy's convocation and i was so overwhelmed with happiness that i cried like a baby! we then proceeded to celebrate his grad for drinks at bar italia. france, kare, and i met up with the crazy hot boys we met at the bar the night before =) YUM!

monday: france and i ended up at cafe 22 to meet up with the said boys. and i had one too many martini that lead me to say and do some silly things as i was still inebriated when i got home that night lol

tuesday: back to the grind and the boring routine. work gym sleep. the most exciting part of the day was when i climbed this stupid route i've been working on forever...and did it clean, first climb of the day, in one try, as my warm up route! how's that for accomplishment hehe

btw happy bday today dennis (traditions never die no matter how far you are!) and mitch (have a crazy bday out in europe wherever you are!)

randomness and quotes of the week:

anyways i've been having a lot of crazy alcohol induced fun in the last little while, a lot, A LOT hahahahaha but i think its time to settle down and get serious about things if i want to ever get out of this place. so i suppose my social life will suffer a little bit. but think of all of the empty calories i wont be consuming! hahaha

i've also decided to quit smoking. for a second time lol lets see how long this lasts!

i was not blessed with good luck apparently. which is fine, i've come to accept that =)

just because i have high self awareness doesn't mean it prevents me from doing stupid things. i'm just more aware of the fact i do stupid things =)

"ahhh what's wrong with me lol there must be something wrong with me!"

...was that a booty call?

"girls aren't normally crazy. just when boys are in the vacinity, they tend to go crazy lol"

"just because i look easy, sort of am easy, doesn't mean i don't have standards!"

cheers to a crazy week kids =) lets do it again sometime.

one.

meesa day =)

i have the long weekend because the doc is off to a class reunion off in toronto, which means i got to sleep in today and have the rest of the weekend off!. the rest of the day i'm gonna spend shopping and getting pampered =) i was contemplating getting a massage except my stupid tendonitis in my shoulder is still somewhat uncomfortable so i'll give it a rest. but today is all about shopping, manicures and pedicures, i might get a makeover at mac, and ooh i'll end the night with some salsa dancing at empire. come and join me!
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the silly tendonitis in my shoulder is so annoying. it means i can't work out my shoulder or climb for another week! which sucks because im going to try to quit smoking AGAIN...and i dont have anything to let out my agression on. but i guess yoga would be the alternative. the calm and meditative way to channel my grr-ness.
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congratulations all of those convocating this week! i'm so very proud of you all! and thanks karen for the webcast of your grad at sfu! that was awesome!


anyways, i'd better get my day started!

i miss cara

she's back in stonewall.
she no longer lives on corydon where we could see bar italia from the kitchen window.
come back in the city so we can chill on the patio of bi...like we had been talking about for oh say the last six months...
imissyouloveyou. 

it's a small. small. world.

all too often i have had to endure some painfully awkward situations. never ever by choice. just my luck i guess. at least, by some freakish chance, i managed to avoid what potentially could have been a disasterous confrontation. thank god. ok. maybe disaterous is an overstatment, but i'm sure awkward wouldn't even begin to describe it.

anyways. so, in winnipeg this whole one degree of separation is inevitbale, right? but sometimes its too close for comfort. especially when it comes to matters of the heart. ok. ok. i'm getting a lil ahead of myself. i know. i know.

enough. winnipeg, its a small world after all...
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ok so when you meet someone new who you think you can potentially have a relationship with you automatically put your gaurds up, and there are all of these proceed with caution signs to cue your every action, and yada yada... but this is just ridiculous. a while ago i just got over the fact that i wasn't successful in filling the enormous giganitc humungo shoes of someone from a previous affair. and those silly shoes just stomped all over my foolish lil heart. do i really want to live in the shadows for a second time. insecurity doesn't even begin to describe how extremely paranoid i am sometimes.

the fork in the road: do i take the road of uncertainty, and see where this path will take me bitter or sweet. or do i take the safe route where getting hurt is not even an option.

oh man. im assuming way too much i think i'm getting a lil ahead of myself. but i guess its better to be safe than sorry. there's nothing wrong with being too careful. blah blah blah...i think way too much...

ignorance is bliss.

p.s. don't drink and blog.